Boo!!!!....and boo-hoo!!!

.....I have spent the last few hours in the bathroom, it can't be food poisoning... ate the scraps from the kids' plates yesterday and everything was fresh.. Perhaps it could be nerves and anxiety. It's day three of the kids being home and I haven't even gotten a chance to recharge my brain cells long enough to give the experience a grade..
I am curled up under my white strawberry stained down comforter that Logan decided bring his plate of strawberries on while I waited on him to finish eat..... ummmm... during which the sleep monster paid me an unexpected visit... "dropsee" ..... Logan decided to slap the crap out of me, and when I flew up out of the sleep with a scream, it made him laugh to the point that all the yucky, goowy, saliva soaked strawberries in his mouth were scattered all over the bed... Oh Lord... Oh Well.. It kinda looks like an Ikat design.. lol.. You gotta pick your battles.
So I have been looking for what I may want for my birthday, since my husband is not too skilled at picking the right gift.... he is however PHENOMENAL with words and cards... Personally, the best gift is from my kids... Something they have created, but since I am also the girl who loves to be surrounded by pretty things and I still haven't gotten those wood floors that I so desperately want but can't afford throughout the entire house, I will settle for accessories this year.  I typically email him a list of a couple items from different companies and ask him to pick one or two items, so it will definitely be something I like but the surprise will be with what he choses..

Alexander Mc. Queen has items on SALE?!?!?!?! .....

Wowwww...... How can a piece so morbid be so cute?!?!?!?!

...which brings me to this....

Alexander McQueen is dead... This lad made skulls look so Funky and Fierce but he ended up taking his own life.. here I am looking at those pieces to wear but for some strange reason it may end up being more appropriate to be worn if I don't do something that is long over due...

....I have not been to the OBGYN ever since I gave birth two years ago... I have figured out that my fear is not finding out whether I may or may not have cervical cancer, but who the hell is going to care for my kids if I were to ever have to receive treatment for any ailment whatsoever...

I recently received a lecture from a friend who was so surprised to find out that I have never been to a spa for a massage and told me to tell my husband that if I don't get one before my birthday, he will have to answer to her... So for my birthday this year, I think the best gift that I could ask for are two gift certificates... One is for "Time" so I could finally receive a full body massage, since I heard thatit is life changing.... sigh.... and the other is for "Pap Smear"..... crickets......... Yup a bloody pap smear....could end up being the worst birthday gift or the best birthday gift but for sure the most important birthday gift....Fun Fun Fun (rolling my eyes).... I see symbolisms in everything and what is eerie about the above pieces from Alexander Mc. Queen is that they all are so "beautiful" with symbols of "death" on them just like so many of us "beautiful" women who may be wearing them everyday who may be plaqued with a silent "death" inside us..... I would rather wear the Boo!!! than have my family Boo-Hoo!!
                                   
                      Please ladies, get your regular Pap Smear....


                                                              
                 

What Dreams May Come....

It's June 1st.... We are halfway through 2011 and it's a fabulous time to reflect on what we have accomplished for the first 6 months of the year....

See how my tiny closet is coming along?  5 ft. 7 inches by 4 ft 10 inches.... You're probably wondering why this was considered an accomplishment, but it was such a huge deal for me... Being the only female in the house with absolutely nothing belonging to ME (since everyone has taken ownership... even my breasts), this is the only little space that I call my own, and in my earlier post HERE, it is a symbol of clarity, worthiness, mental allignment etc.... I was having a hard time finding a place for my shoes until I found this bookshelf from Ikea... Thank goodness... The white chests I purchased from Target and they hold my regular everyday items of clothing... I simply nailed a couple nails for some of my necklaces, found a little craft box for my rings, the pink stacked boxes hold my makeup and cosmetic brushes and the green holder has my bracelets (it once belonged to Logan).... I just elevated the racks so they could hold two rows of clothing one above the other ( Will show after it's completed)... Will see how that goes..


It's so nice to be back... That hiatus was soul  changing... I am more and more baffled by the person I am and who I am becoming... My passions, my patience, my dreams, my frustrations and most importantly my priorities... It's actually pretty frightening when you begin to realize at what point in your life that you change and begin putting things into perspective and morphing into who you really want to be, and who you were put on this earth to be... Wayyyy back when I was on Facebook regularly, I remember posting something about being so lucky to be "here" because out of the millions of sperm, that ONE.. "Me"... won the race when I was always told by my mom that I was not planned... How lucky am I? I believe unplanned kids are equally special to planned kids because I  think we are God's foresight.. What a miraculous foresight we are.. Many of you who know my story of my 2 sons with autism also know that our "Logi Bear" was one of God's Miraculous Foresights...
The month that I was on hiatus, I allowed myself to absorb everything that he has to offer, what he has and continues to bring to our lives, the surprises that every day brings with what he does or says... How he interacts with his older brothers who most often ignore him and doesn't really know how to deal with what seems "abnormal" to them... To my husband and I, we equally feel a sense of abnormality when MOST of what we have ever known as parents are pandemonium, chaos and quirkiness... This is all so new...
During my hiatus, I also had to convince myself that I was worthy enough of that joy... Oh What A JOY it is and I am bottling it all up.. Wanna buy some? hehehehe.
Here is something we haven't experienced since our soon to be 9 year old was 2 years old and subsequently lost when his signs of autism increased... Sitting appropriately at a table eating with a utensil... Here is our "Logi Bear" having his final snack before bedtime in our room..



Doesn't he look like one a little Bear? hehehe....He was offering me a piece of bread..

Hehehehe.. Silly Boy

 Yup, I have a child who eats fruit...

Look at that Eye Contact..... No words...

God bless those little hands that they will always be used for good.....

.... The kids are officially home for the Summer vacation..actually, it started yesterday with Brandon returning home within one hour of arriving at school because of a temperature.. It takes so much energy on a morning to get the two boys prepared for school so I decided to keep Dylan home today.... An abrupt end to my half days of solitude, but I have been preparing for about a month.. Luckily, I had already purchased all their supplies from The Dollar Tree so what's left is to create a routine for them during the day... It's going to be tough....

My mom is here for a little while, just ran back upstairs from checking to see whether she is still breathing... She told me if she had what I have to deal with everyday, she would have ran away already.. Poor lady.. This is day one Ma.. hehehe.... Strap up your boots and and wear your girdle.. It's going to be Mr. Toad's Wild Ride...
My husband and I were able to sneak out on Friday evening, although it couldn't happen until after all the kids were asleep.. We left the house at 10:20 pm drove 40 mins to our destination.... and we were back home by 12:20 am.. (You could do the calculation of how long we stayed out).. WE were tired, but very grateful and satisfied with the time we captured.. Truly quality time.. We have become an old couple.. This year will be 10 years we're together but we feel like we will be celebrating of 50th wedding anniversary.. Our kids make our life so weary, but we love each other dearly.. God truly wrote our book differently than we expected but it's good.. the Canadian boy falls in love with the St. Lucian girl and lives happily ever after.....:-)

...So, I guess the book continues...

A Beautiful Mind....

                                                           I love hiccups in life...

....I think of them as pressing the pause button while listening to song you love because of the beat, to research the lyrics, then pressing play, now reading the lyrics along with the song.... It is then that you truly discover whether the song has more substance than just the beat. The next time you listen to that song the emotion you once had may either change or perhaps remain the same...

Sometimes we think most intellects have gone through the traditional path to arrive where we think are their pinnacles of success... but as much as there has been a debate between the mind and the brain, I personally believe that the mind is like the family member who isn't invited to brain's Thanksgiving dinner in Beverly Hills but instead, is sent a bowl of the left overs to him in the slums of California, unbeknownced  to the rest of the family. The family secret is the "mind" was able to purchase the house for the "brain" in Beverly Hills while sacrificing itself and remaining in the slums..
Ever so often we do not press the pause button to give our minds the opportunity to help us achieve the goals that we so desperately want to attain. We do not have confidence in ourselves because our "brain" isn't working at the same speed as everyone else or our "hiccups" seem beyond the unexplained..... AND the reason many people insult our intelligence.....(pause, one eye brow raised)... is because they have a perception of us only through what they view on the outside.. The question is are we on the path towards taking steps to simply shock the hell out of them but most importantly, are we working on our self confidence where we are willing to shock OURSELVES.....


Here are a couple successful celebrities who truly allowed their minds to take power over their brains.....

Do you know what they have in common?

                                                        


                                                        It's GAME TIMEEEEE!!!!!!!

                                                          

                                                                     *Peter Jennings




                                                                 

                                                                     *Bill Cosby



                         

                                                               

     *John Travolta

                                 


                                                                       

* Chris Rock

*Frank Sinatra

*Vidal Sassoon

Once again it's GAME TIME on Brandylis and The Bear...

Question: What do the above geniuses in their own right and mind have in common?

Rules:  Post your answer as a comment (not on my Facebook page)... and as before, I will disable the the comments to be viewed until after the contest. If there are multiple responces with the correct answer, I will put the names in a hat and allow Logi Bear to pick one.. hehehehe.. Yep.. the old fashioned way.. There is a catch... if there are less that 25 reponces, the contest will be voided. So you better get your friends and family on board to comment. If they don't know how to comment, teach them.. Deadline is tomorrow, April 4th, at 10:00.pm. Eastern time..

                        So what are you WINNING?

This beautiful makeup set by LORAC valued at $150 !!

The Newest Fragrance "Into The Wild" from Bath and Body Works

Men, you can also participate for a chance to win for the women in your life.(sister, girlfriend, wife, mother etc)

...and remember..... A Mind is terrible thing to waste.... Explore your talents and abilities before they are taken away..



I have Confidence.......

Wasn't it a marvelous day today? If you are not in Florida, I hope you  had and equally beautiful day...It was 80 Plus degrees outside.. There was a beautiful breeze... Not one tantrum with any of the kids and Logi Bear dunked his first basketball..
          
                  It's Spring.... It's Spring .... It's ..... Stillll..... Springggggggg!!!!!!! ( COUGH COUGH)


So I asked my husband to do a photo shoot of me in my Spring (Dun Dun ) Dress... I told him that I would be twirling so he could capture some LOVELY ORGANIC PHOTOS... You know how celebrities have the lighting, fan, water, and music playing in the background... Well... I was on a 25 cent budget so I had to sing " The Hills are Alive" in my head to get me in the mood... Now those of you who know me know that The Sound of Music is one of my favortie movies of all time..... So....Mother Mercy...  Here is how it came out..... Hope you have a laugh at my expense.    Uhhh Uhhhmmm

What will this day be like? I wonder.

What will my future be? I wonder.

It could be so exciting to be out in the world, to be freeeeeeee

My heart should be wildly rejoicing

Oh, what's the matter with me?

I've always longed for adventure

To do the things I've never dared

And here I'm facing adventure

Then why am I so scared

A captain with seven children ( I have 3)
What's so fearsome about that?

Oh, I must stop these doubts, all these worries
If I don't I just know I'll turn back
I must dream of the things I am seeking
I am seeking the courage I lack

The courage to serve them with reliance
Face my mistakes without defiance
Show them I'm worthy
And while I show them
I'll show me

So, let them bring on all their problems
I'll do better than my best
I have confidence they'll put me to the test
But I'll make them see I have confidence in me

Somehow I will impress them
I will be firm but kind
And all those children (Heaven bless them!)
They will look up to me

And mind me with each step I am more certainEverything will turn out fine
I have confidence the world can all be mine
They'll have to agree I have confidence in me

I have confidence in sunshine
I have confidence in rain
I have confidence that spring will come again
Besides which you see I have confidence in me

Strength doesn't lie in numbers
Strength doesn't lie in wealth
Strength lies in nights of peaceful slumbers
When you wake up -- Wake Up!

It tells me all I trust I lead my heart to
All I trust becomes my own
I have confidence in confidence alone
(Oh help!)

I have confidence in confidence alone
Besides which you see I have confidence in 

MMMMMe!!!!!

Soooooo....... what do you think?...... Will Vogue give me a call?........ Uhhhh.... Maybe I could get coffee for Anna Wontour?.... Right?....... (Crickets.... Crickets... Flies.....) 

Ohhhh... Kayyyyy... Hey I felt pretty... shucks... hehehehe

The Early Spring Scrooge...Rarrrrrr!!!!

Besides the dreadful Spring time allergies that I have heard of but fortunately don't get, there is another thing that scares me to the core.. (bring in the theme from Jaws) It's called "Let's Go SWIMMINGGGGGGG"...... (first day the clocks turn back).. Mother mercy... Kids with autism are so fearless when it comes to things that they enjoy... It is like being such a bacon lover, that you would but the sizzling bacon into your mouth directly from the hot griddle or frying pan... and that is without putting in on a plate. Many autistic kids have loveeeee water and will enter no matter the temperature. So could you imagine being cooped up in the house since the middle of November to March, and the closest thing to a pool is your bathtub which you now have to share with your third baby brother..... hmmm.....

....ONE YEAR EARLIER...(7:00 p.m.)

                                                                  EESALOP!!!!!!!

WHAAHHHYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"PLEASE DON'T TOUCH ME!!!!!!!!""

"PLEASE DYLAN I NEED A MINUTE!!!!!"

"WHY AM I BEING PUNISHED?"

"I KNOW I AM CRYING BUT WHERE ARE THE TEARS?"

"TREVOR YOU'RE TAKING PICTURES?...THAT'S IT!!"

"SO NOW THE TEARS DECIDED TO ROLL DOWN"

"But wait...why am I now smiling?"

"..because you are smiling...."

"Yup.....it's for moments like these"

"...and like these that make it all worth it in the end"

...I wonder what is going to happen this year as Logan is a little older? I am doomed....Stay tuned!!!!!!