It's June 1st.... We are halfway through 2011 and it's a fabulous time to reflect on what we have accomplished for the first 6 months of the year....
See how my tiny closet is coming along? 5 ft. 7 inches by 4 ft 10 inches.... You're probably wondering why this was considered an accomplishment, but it was such a huge deal for me... Being the only female in the house with absolutely nothing belonging to ME (since everyone has taken ownership... even my breasts), this is the only little space that I call my own, and in my earlier post
HERE, it is a symbol of clarity, worthiness, mental allignment etc.... I was having a hard time finding a place for my shoes until I found this bookshelf from Ikea... Thank goodness... The white chests I purchased from Target and they hold my regular everyday items of clothing... I simply nailed a couple nails for some of my necklaces, found a little craft box for my rings, the pink stacked boxes hold my makeup and cosmetic brushes and the green holder has my bracelets (it once belonged to Logan).... I just elevated the racks so they could hold two rows of clothing one above the other ( Will show after it's completed)... Will see how that goes..
It's so nice to be back... That hiatus was soul changing... I am more and more baffled by the person I am and who I am becoming... My passions, my patience, my dreams, my frustrations and most importantly my priorities... It's actually pretty frightening when you begin to realize at what point in your life that you change and begin putting things into perspective and morphing into who you really want to be, and who you were put on this earth to be... Wayyyy back when I was on Facebook regularly, I remember posting something about being so lucky to be "here" because out of the millions of sperm, that ONE.. "Me"... won the race when I was always told by my mom that I was not planned... How lucky am I? I believe unplanned kids are equally special to planned kids because I think we are God's foresight.. What a miraculous foresight we are.. Many of you who know my story of my 2 sons with autism also know that our "Logi Bear" was one of God's Miraculous Foresights...
The month that I was on hiatus, I allowed myself to absorb everything that he has to offer, what he has and continues to bring to our lives, the surprises that every day brings with what he does or says... How he interacts with his older brothers who most often ignore him and doesn't really know how to deal with what seems "abnormal" to them... To my husband and I, we equally feel a sense of abnormality when MOST of what we have ever known as parents are pandemonium, chaos and quirkiness... This is all so new...
During my hiatus, I also had to convince myself that I was worthy enough of that joy... Oh What A JOY it is and I am bottling it all up.. Wanna buy some? hehehehe.
Here is something we haven't experienced since our soon to be 9 year old was 2 years old and subsequently lost when his signs of autism increased... Sitting appropriately at a table eating with a utensil... Here is our "Logi Bear" having his final snack before bedtime in our room..
Doesn't he look like one a little Bear? hehehe....He was offering me a piece of bread..
Hehehehe.. Silly Boy
Yup, I have a child who eats fruit...
Look at that Eye Contact..... No words...
God bless those little hands that they will always be used for good.....
.... The kids are officially home for the Summer vacation..actually, it started yesterday with Brandon returning home within one hour of arriving at school because of a temperature.. It takes so much energy on a morning to get the two boys prepared for school so I decided to keep Dylan home today.... An abrupt end to my half days of solitude, but I have been preparing for about a month.. Luckily, I had already purchased all their supplies from The Dollar Tree so what's left is to create a routine for them during the day... It's going to be tough....
My mom is here for a little while, just ran back upstairs from checking to see whether she is still breathing... She told me if she had what I have to deal with everyday, she would have ran away already.. Poor lady.. This is day one Ma.. hehehe.... Strap up your boots and and wear your girdle.. It's going to be Mr. Toad's Wild Ride...
My husband and I were able to sneak out on Friday evening, although it couldn't happen until after all the kids were asleep.. We left the house at 10:20 pm drove 40 mins to our destination.... and we were back home by 12:20 am.. (You could do the calculation of how long we stayed out).. WE were tired, but very grateful and satisfied with the time we captured.. Truly quality time.. We have become an old couple.. This year will be 10 years we're together but we feel like we will be celebrating of 50th wedding anniversary.. Our kids make our life so weary, but we love each other dearly.. God truly wrote our book differently than we expected but it's good.. the Canadian boy falls in love with the St. Lucian girl and lives happily ever after.....:-)
...So, I guess the book continues...
